[MUSE]ic in Me

He comes to me in the darkness;
With inspiration to drive this artist
The lyrics to the song I'm singing
My breath of life-
my reason for living.
Faded by logic and
fueled by illusion,
peeking out from my mind's confusion.
Pointing me in the right direction,
steering away from perfection.
In the shape of a man
with eyes like the sky,
my harshest critic,
my closest ally.
The spark that lights the creative flame
My body, my heart:
He bears the claim.
Completion is never the object.
Only expression, only content.

.:~o*'Kaylyn'*o~:.

Ghost of Lovers Past

There are certain things I should know by now. There are certain things I just shouldn't do. I should just know better by now.

And yet, I find myself chasing ghosts of the past for some sort of closure. And the funny thing is, I don't know if I'm after these spirits, these memories, this person to help them move on... or myself.

I hate this power you have over me. I hate this thing--whatever it's called--between us. I hate that I can't forget you. I hate that I don't want to.

I love him.
I love us.
I love now.

Begone spirit. Haunt me no longer!

I beg of you.

.:~o*'Kaylyn'*o~:.

Cavendish Manor

“One more time.”

“Another? But we’ve been over this a dozen times since we left Ermington!”

“Yes, and we will go through it again and again until we pass through the iron gates themselves. Now, once more.”

Maggie sighed loudly, knowing she couldn’t fight the will of Professor Tillman much longer. “Fine. Cavendish Manor stands as the largest estate in the country, run by a staff of servants under the supervision of Miss Anne Cunningham. It was designed and built by Josiah Cavendish, the father of Jeremiah Cavendish, who took what little money he had to his name after his wife’s death and nearly tripled it before his untimely death. Everything went to Jacob Cavendish, who had to be called away from abroad to oversee his grandfather’s affairs. And John--,”

Professor Tillman cleared his throat loudly.

“Sorry. Young Master Cavendish is the youngest in the powerful line of Cavendish men. He’s beginning to show early signs of the same disease that killed his great-grandfather, which is why I was called upon to be his companion whilst his father is away on his many business trips. There.”

“Must everything sound like village gossip when you say it?” he said, a hint of annoyance in his voice. He was busy thumbing through the thick book that had been resting in his lap most of the ride up to Cavendish Manor. Margaret wasn’t convinced he was actually reading it as the pages turned too fast between his fingers.

“Sorry. But I was right, wasn’t I?”

He snapped the book shut. Maggie jumped. “How many times must I remind you? It is not what you say, but how you say it, Margaret.”

She groaned. “Call me Maggie, everyone does.”

He nodded. “Yes, everyone does. Everyone in Ermington. Everyone not of the privileged class. Everyone doomed to live in that godforsaken village with no hopes of being more than a seamstress or a common butcher.”

Maggie crossed her arms over her chest. “My father was a butcher,” she spat.

Seeing the hurt in her face, Professor Tillman set his book aside and placed a hand on her knee. “I’m sorry. Your father was a decent man. He was my friend, after all. I’ve known you since you were a child, Margaret. But now you must leave such things behind. At Cavendish Manor, you will be expected to act like the lady your parents always wanted you to be treated as.”

She wouldn’t look at Tillman. Instead, she turned her teary gaze out of the window. The countryside passed by quickly. Everything looked so different. There were blue skies, clear pastures, birds twittering about. It was beautiful. Even the roads were smoother. The carriage traveled easily enough with hardly a bump felt by either passenger. Margaret wondered if this is what money bought people.

“Approaching Cavendish Road, sir!” the driver announced.

Professor Tillman straightened his position and began smoothing his attire. He produced a small cloth from his inside jacket pocket and polished the lenses of his glasses in his lap. “You will remember everything I’ve taught you, won’t you Margaret?”

“I’ll do my best.”

“Follow every instruction Miss Cunningham gives you.”

“I will.”

“And never speak out of turn.”

“I won’t.”

“Right then,” he said.

Cavendish Manor rose into view. Margaret pressed her face to the window to get a better look. It was enormous. The house looked more like a palace than a home. You could fit everyone from Ermington in there! she thought. The iron gates swung open to allow them in and Margaret couldn’t help but notice the letters “JC” formed at the top in what seemed like woven gold. A small portly woman stood alone in the drive. She was waving wildly at them.

“Professor Tillman…”

“Yes, Margaret?”

“I’m scared.”

.:~o*'Kaylyn'*o~:.

Blergh

UGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHH!

Next week is going to suck. Class. Rehearsal. Work. Not to mention wanting to continue my health and fitness regimen (126, baby!). Ugh. I am not looking forward to going back to BR.

That is all.

.:~o*'Kaylyn'*o~:.

Also, I have a new story in the works. Newly inspired by something I'm reading. Hopefully, it'll be a well-welcomed distraction.

100 truths about K. Marie

Because I just don't post notes on FB. I don't know why anymore... Just don't. So here ya go:


WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage = Pink Lemonade kool-aid (made it myself ^-^)
2. last phone call = Made? My sister. Received? My mom.
3. last text message = Chris Taylor (still texting now ^-^)
4. last song you listened to = Paparazzi - Lady Gaga
5. last time you cried = Last night (happy tears!)

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice = Yes. Ugh.
7. been cheated on = Yes.
8. kissed someone & regretted it = The kiss? No. How it happened... well... :/
9. lost someone special = Yes.
10. been depressed = Yes.
11. been drunk and threw up = Close.. But no.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Blue
13. Brown
14. White (especially those 3 in combination - like my bedsrpead)

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend = Chyeah!
16. Fallen out of love = Unfortunately.
17. Laughed until you cried = All. The. Time.
18. Met someone who changed you = "For Good" ^-^
19. Found out who your true friends were = Never had a doubt...
20. Found out someone was talking about you = Aren't they always? :P
21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = Yup.

GENERAL:
22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = Every one. Well, I've seen them.
24. Do you have any pets = Does my boyfriend count? :P (no)
25. Do you want to change your name = Nah.
26. What did you do for your last birthday = PRIDE!
27. What time did you wake up today = 7:50a (church)
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = Watching Nip/Tuck season 1
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = March 28th!!!!
30. Last time you saw your Mother = Before I closed my room door... (she was in the hallway)
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = Nothing. I rather like my life.
32. What are you listening to right now = Chris Rock's loud mouth.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = Uhhhmm.. Knew a Tom Gurly in elementary... But we never "talked". Ew.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = See no. 32
35. Most visited webpage = Facebook.
38. Relationship Status = Hidden. XP
39. Zodiac sign = Virgo
40. He or She = ME!
41. Elementary = T.S. Cooley Elementary Magnet School (I love saying that!)
42. High School = Barbe High
43. College = Southern/LSU
44. Hair color = Brown
45. Long or short = Short
46. Height = 5'4"
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = Yes. (Luckily, I'm dating him ^-^)
48. What do you like about yourself? = Uhh... Skip.
49. Piercings = None.
50. Tattoos = Gross.
51. Righty or lefty = Righty.

FIRSTS:
52. First surgery = Uhm.. when they cut the umbilical cord thingy off and made my belly button. Does that count?
53. First piercing = Ears when I was a baby.
54. First best friend = Carrie (Sigh, I miss her.)
55. First sport you joined = Gymnastics.
56. First vacation = Oh Lord... I don't remember.
58. First crush = Luis Cerna (2nd grade)

What you are doing:
59. Eating = Gumbo, actually.
60. Drinking = Pink Lemonade kool-aid (made it my-- deja vu)
61. I'm about to = Log in to Gaia.
62. Listening to = Chris Rock's loud mouth. (still)
63. Waiting for = Rachel to get on AIM! :P

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids = Yes. Adoptive.
65. Get Married? = I hope to.
66. Career = Writing.

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes = Eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses = Hugs.
69. Shorter or taller = Taller.
70. Older or Younger = :P
71. Romantic or spontaneous = Spontaneously romantic.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = Nice heart.
73. Sensitive or loud = Sensitive.
74. Hook-up or relationship = "Ooh no, I do not hook u-up! I go slowww..."
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = What kind of trouble? ;)

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger = No.
77. Drank hard liquor = Yes.
78. Lost glasses/contacts = No.
79. Sex on first date = Never.
80. Broken someone's heart = Yes.
81. Had your own heart broken = Cracked, never broken.
82. Been arrested = No.
83. Turned someone down = Yes.
84. Cried when someone died = Yes.
85. Fallen for a friend = Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = Not really.
87. Miracles = Yes.
88. Love at first sight = Yes.
89. Heaven = Yes.
90. Santa Claus = Not anymore.
91. Kiss on the first date = Maybe, depends on the date.
92. Angels = Yes.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
93. Had more than one gf/bf = At a time? No!
95. Did you sing today = Yes, in the car.
96. Ever cheated on somebody = Yes.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go = Very. 16th century England.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be = April 11th.

No 99. Well, that sucks.


100. Afraid of posting this as 100 truths = Nope.

.:~o*'Kaylyn'*o~:.

My Year According to FB

What a year! (Because I'm wayyyy too lazy to write a summary of 09 post)

.:~o*'Kaylyn'*o~:.