He was the most attractive boy in the 11th grade. Or, at least, to her he was. To others, he was just another nameless face in the crowd. A weird kid. But, to her, she was the reason for going to school. He was beautiful and kind. She liked that he wasn't like all the others. There was something behind that mask of mystery; something she wished desperately to uncover.
The pages of her diary curled with her secret wanting. Only one other person knew of her true feelings. It wasn't her mother. It wasn't her sister. It was her best friend, Xavier. And although Xavier had tried desperately to unlock the secrets of his soul through well-planned and often seemingly innocent late-night conversations, he remained unmoved. She found herself crushed. And utterly lost. After a while, she decided it wasn't fair to ask this of another person--not even her best friend. Especially her best friend. After all, was it not her heart (and her heart alone) which ached?
Wrong.
She resolved she would tell him her she felt. And she gave herself two weeks to do it. Christmas break. But something happened before she gathered the much-needed courage. She found out she wasn't alone. There was another who vied for his affections like her. And she decided it was best to take a back seat to the other and watch the universe unfold to its own will. If he did feel for the other as she thought he did, he'd be happy. If he denied the other, then there was hope for her yet. It seemed all too perfect.
Christmas break came and went in the blink of an eye. And nothing had changed. The other was not as brave as she thought. She still had a chance. But could she risk it? She wanted to. Desperately.
Then, it happened. After sitting in the passenger's seat of Xavier's truck for over an hour, pouring out her heart and confessing her feelings, she got the advice she needed: Sometimes you gotta jump to get somewheres.
.:~o*'Kaylyn'*o~:.
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